SIGH. FML. FUCK.

I am so so so so so sad now and i think i am starting to get a feel of how depression feels like, it is probably this feeling which sucks so badly and turns u off at every little thing u do.
Nothing appeals to you
you don't feel like doing anything
you just wanna stone and maybe sleep
and things will go back to the same tomorrow?

Oh god , face it . Nothing changes and what has been done has been done, FK.
Actually, i think i am worrying too much.. I am worrying at every single thing in my life, let me list them down.

For starters,
My appeal results will only come out during 5th apr, WTF! Isn't that like 1 and a half weeks before poly starts? Won't my fate be sealed in maritime and offshore tech by then? Unless a glimmer of hope is given to me that i am able to go to the IT course -.-"
Worst of all, all this happened because i screw JAE up, how lame!
And my last resort is to go to nyp's info tech, omg I dont care anymore !

Next up, i am worrying about my japanese studies journey. I missed last week's lesson and my replacement lesson is on monday. Which means i have to go for this sunday's lesson while missing out last week's lesson, FML.
That is why tomorrow i am seeking amelia for help! And at the same time study for my jap, GG it all looks so foreign to me.
Accompanied with that i am piano lessons as well and i have zero time to practice for i have WORK, FML.

Monday is my basic theory test and why do i feel so nervous?? Is it because that the passing mark is 45/50? FML
The whole of next week i am on standby for work , FML.

Oh my goodness, aren't i supposed to be so free of time??? How come i am so pressed for time?
And because of the frequent going outs , my time is cut even more. I really wonder how i am going to do about this and from this i finally realise that my time management is fked up, FML.

Next up, my laptop. Yes i am very happy about its performance when it comes to gaming, here is where its QUAD CORE and 1GB memory card is given the stage. But, BUT. When is comes to internet browsing, this QUAD CORE is not doing its best. This QUAD CORE has been given the M1 7.2mbps mobile broadband plan and ISN'T THAT FAST ENOUGH?
Why am i still lagging and having stupid problems like sometimes being unable to even connect to the internet? Is it my firewall? Is it my anti - virus , oh enlighten me .

Geez, i was pretty unhappy just now for when i ordered in macs, i wanted to watch some videos while eating but i ended up finishing the food while doing some settings to the com. Sigh, FML.
Speaking of videos, here comes the ultimate finishing blow which is the MAIN cause of my emoness today.
My western digital hard drive really gave up on me. This big and bulkly monster actually died on me when it fell. Let me illustrate further, Mr. WD was standing on the floor and when i was about to remove it i accidentaly kicked it and it fell to a sleeping position, the impact isn't that great . BUT HOW CAN U BREAK LIKE THAT?
Immediately i sent it for medical care at sim lim square and here is when the doctor told me that my WD died. During the fall, the pin of the hard drive broke and there was nothing he could do.
However, there is a solution ( a glimmer of hope ) . I can bring it down to the data recovery specialist and they can do it for me at about 1k plus ( glimmer of hope crashed ), WHAT THE HELL? $1000+ to recover my data???? O god, somebody kill me now, slit my wrist, end this torment.. T.T

Sigh, if my hard drive broke due to me dropping it carelessly from a HIGH place i would have nothing to say but.. but.. :(
My games, my psp games , my anime, my movies, my photos, all the things i have since sec 4. Bye bye, i learnt a very valuable lesson today. Have TWO FUCKING HARD DRIVES, one for usage/storage and one for a dam safety measure .
My day was totally ruined and some anime cheered me up a little, games are not entertaining today, and every little thing contributed to the unhappiness i have inside me. Sigh!

Oh well! I guess i will
have to study my jap tomorrow,
hope my laptop and mobile broadband doesn't fool with me if not i am going bitch to M1,
put my piano lessons on hold,
read my basic theory book
find out what is wrong with my roller coaster tycoon 3 -.-"
Sigh sigh, i better remember :(

Should i downgrade to XP? Remember to ask a pro...

I think i rant alot today haha, typing it out really fast and in a pretty furious manner did the trick and i remember hearing about how girls eat and eat when they are unhappy. Certainly worked for me today, i had my fill and now i am feeling much better. To top things off, i even have my favourite strawberry sundae yum!
Temporary measures to mend the sad heart.

LAST AND FOREMOST! :)
FUCK MY LIFE