Okay i am not so emo anymore , things are starting to clear up. They may not be the best of things but they are enough to satisfy , be happy with the little things we have huh.

First up, i finally heard something from Singapore Poly. They posted a mail saying that i have been accepted into information comm tech there, and though it is not the intended course which i wanted but oh well for it at least beats maritime :)
I find it odd though for Singapore's maritime industry is doing so well and yet i am trying my best to not get into the maritime course, its interest man! /
And why am i feeling this way?!?! Have i grown an attachment to the course even without knowing it? *shreks*

But what came before all these academic stuff was my BTT test, i swear it was more nerve wrecking then taking those exams in JC . It was probably due to the fact that the passing mark being 45/50 and if i were to fail this test my next test would be in late april which is 1 month from that time. In summary if i fail i would be idling for 1 month with no driving at all, how sad is that?
Thus i became a little more kia-su than usual and i even went to take those theory trials and my results were as such,
45/50
45/50
45/50
OMGOMGOMG HOW!? Can u imagine what i was feeling at that moment , one more wrong and that is the end of my life man. But in the end i managed to score :)
And being kia-su was good afterall for a lot of the questions which i took during the trial practice came out during the BTT itself, how lucky.
Of course Lester after taking his PDL is happily taking his practical lessons now and working his work to take the damn traffic police test, oh god its hard.
This experience wasn't the end yet for there is still the final theory test, singapore is too safe seriously. If everyone were to follow the rules set, there would be more accidents for driving too slowly is harder than driving normally lol.
The final theory test is next and it is harder than BTT , less stress for i can still drive even if i fail it but no no i am must get my licence as fast as possible so i can drive to school :)

Last week i was pretty uptight my japanese lessons though as for awhile i wasn't able to catch up due to me missing one lesson . Learning a foreign language is hard man and in the end i was able to catch up and even doing not too bad on my test :)

talent la XD

Yesterday was pretty fun as well for i had reuinion dinner with my barker classmates at andrews haha.Food was good and almost the whole class came which made things even better :)
Rock band was a must ( LIVING ON A PRAYER~ ) anyways.. We then watched the fourth kind and omg it was disturbing :(
speaking of which its 3.20 OMG, if u watched the show u would understand why i feel afraid now .
Then we watched zombieland which was awesome as usual, the rules are exceptional :D
I then cabbed home with unjin lol , midnight charge hurts :(

Oh well and i am pretty tired already, 6 hours of driving is not fun . It really drains u though even when u are just sitting there and moving your legs haha.

Lester signs off :D

SIGH. FML. FUCK.

I am so so so so so sad now and i think i am starting to get a feel of how depression feels like, it is probably this feeling which sucks so badly and turns u off at every little thing u do.
Nothing appeals to you
you don't feel like doing anything
you just wanna stone and maybe sleep
and things will go back to the same tomorrow?

Oh god , face it . Nothing changes and what has been done has been done, FK.
Actually, i think i am worrying too much.. I am worrying at every single thing in my life, let me list them down.

For starters,
My appeal results will only come out during 5th apr, WTF! Isn't that like 1 and a half weeks before poly starts? Won't my fate be sealed in maritime and offshore tech by then? Unless a glimmer of hope is given to me that i am able to go to the IT course -.-"
Worst of all, all this happened because i screw JAE up, how lame!
And my last resort is to go to nyp's info tech, omg I dont care anymore !

Next up, i am worrying about my japanese studies journey. I missed last week's lesson and my replacement lesson is on monday. Which means i have to go for this sunday's lesson while missing out last week's lesson, FML.
That is why tomorrow i am seeking amelia for help! And at the same time study for my jap, GG it all looks so foreign to me.
Accompanied with that i am piano lessons as well and i have zero time to practice for i have WORK, FML.

Monday is my basic theory test and why do i feel so nervous?? Is it because that the passing mark is 45/50? FML
The whole of next week i am on standby for work , FML.

Oh my goodness, aren't i supposed to be so free of time??? How come i am so pressed for time?
And because of the frequent going outs , my time is cut even more. I really wonder how i am going to do about this and from this i finally realise that my time management is fked up, FML.

Next up, my laptop. Yes i am very happy about its performance when it comes to gaming, here is where its QUAD CORE and 1GB memory card is given the stage. But, BUT. When is comes to internet browsing, this QUAD CORE is not doing its best. This QUAD CORE has been given the M1 7.2mbps mobile broadband plan and ISN'T THAT FAST ENOUGH?
Why am i still lagging and having stupid problems like sometimes being unable to even connect to the internet? Is it my firewall? Is it my anti - virus , oh enlighten me .

Geez, i was pretty unhappy just now for when i ordered in macs, i wanted to watch some videos while eating but i ended up finishing the food while doing some settings to the com. Sigh, FML.
Speaking of videos, here comes the ultimate finishing blow which is the MAIN cause of my emoness today.
My western digital hard drive really gave up on me. This big and bulkly monster actually died on me when it fell. Let me illustrate further, Mr. WD was standing on the floor and when i was about to remove it i accidentaly kicked it and it fell to a sleeping position, the impact isn't that great . BUT HOW CAN U BREAK LIKE THAT?
Immediately i sent it for medical care at sim lim square and here is when the doctor told me that my WD died. During the fall, the pin of the hard drive broke and there was nothing he could do.
However, there is a solution ( a glimmer of hope ) . I can bring it down to the data recovery specialist and they can do it for me at about 1k plus ( glimmer of hope crashed ), WHAT THE HELL? $1000+ to recover my data???? O god, somebody kill me now, slit my wrist, end this torment.. T.T

Sigh, if my hard drive broke due to me dropping it carelessly from a HIGH place i would have nothing to say but.. but.. :(
My games, my psp games , my anime, my movies, my photos, all the things i have since sec 4. Bye bye, i learnt a very valuable lesson today. Have TWO FUCKING HARD DRIVES, one for usage/storage and one for a dam safety measure .
My day was totally ruined and some anime cheered me up a little, games are not entertaining today, and every little thing contributed to the unhappiness i have inside me. Sigh!

Oh well! I guess i will
have to study my jap tomorrow,
hope my laptop and mobile broadband doesn't fool with me if not i am going bitch to M1,
put my piano lessons on hold,
read my basic theory book
find out what is wrong with my roller coaster tycoon 3 -.-"
Sigh sigh, i better remember :(

Should i downgrade to XP? Remember to ask a pro...

I think i rant alot today haha, typing it out really fast and in a pretty furious manner did the trick and i remember hearing about how girls eat and eat when they are unhappy. Certainly worked for me today, i had my fill and now i am feeling much better. To top things off, i even have my favourite strawberry sundae yum!
Temporary measures to mend the sad heart.

LAST AND FOREMOST! :)
FUCK MY LIFE

Somehow it seems to me that whenever u are having fun or enjoying the time with your friends, the day is never enough and within a short notice , its nightfall already.
Sigh sigh and even now its already 2.30am and i feel like i haven't done enough for me to be sleeping yet even though i am getting really darn sleepy already :(

Today i went to get my laptop from ngee ann poly zzzz. I slept at 5am the previous day from playing WOW with ly and i had to wake up at 10am , even though its 5 hrs of sleep i still feel deprived . The laptop that i am getting is the lenovo's thinpad w510 and it is at the price of 2k!
2000 bucks is certainly alot of money but the original price of that laptop is 4k, isn't that a good bargain already? Other than the fact that the laptop looks really crappy, it is the inside that matters... Right? RIGHT?

Ever tried samy's curry at damsey road? oh the fish head and chicken there is awesome. However the curry is super hot though :(
Next time when i have my licence i will be sure to bring the scums there for getting there is really a problem -.- "
I even had a short drive around the ulu car park there :) Cheap thrills make up a big part of your life LOL

After that i went to suan's hse at about 1.40pm and we were suppose to leave at 2pm , i found him to be in his home clothes and playing GTA 4 ( ownage game ) when he was supposed to be ready to leave. We were as usual late but we took the expressbus to dhouby ghaut which took about 30mins? From jurong east , that is pretty fast .
Then we started to LAN , AS USUAL. But the experience wasn't too good though, we had a nice first win but we lost the next 2 in the most unexpected way. I guess we were too complacent for we were winning quite the bit at the first half of the game , from the second half onwards the tide changed for the worst for us and we get pwned instead. OWNED T.T
Pool at the basement was fun :) Using the my old bridge method i can say that i improved slightly in terms of accuracy i guess and i made this dam pro jump shot LOL. tyco :D

We starved ourselves till about 8.30 before making way to bishan only to have some "wonderful" and " delicious " food at the hawker centre above the bus interchange, maybe it was closing and thus the quality dropped , but the drop was tremendous. The noodles i had was hard and difficult to swallow , the chicken and char siew needless to say was bad and rough, the sauce which is the most important was just salty and it was so little that i had to use the soup to " soften the noodles ". It was an immense battle and darren too had the chicken rice there only to find himself almost puking LOL, that was funny.
We then watched alice in wonderland , it was not 3d though , what a pity. But the show was good for it re-lived our childhood memories lol.

Then we parted ways and went home, sounds so mundane. But i guess that is how it is when u don't have a car to go home after midnight, we could probably chill out .
Oh god, i am so sleepy i dont even know what i am typing already sigh.

Lester signs out

I like this sms which i got from gail sometime ago.

They love you but they are not your lover..
They care for you but they are not your family..
They are ready to share your pain but they are not in your blood relation..
They are..
Friends!
True friend,
scolds like a Dad!
cares like a Mom!
teases like a Sister!
irritates like a Brother!
& finally, loves you more than a lover.

Do you know about the relationship between your 2 eyes?
They blink together
move together,
cry together,
see things together &
sleep together
Thought they never see each other, friendship should be just like that.
Life is hell without friends.

This message is to all my friends who reads my blog and especially to my closer friends , not forgetting the scums, u people to me are as the message says (:

Japanese class today was fun! We are like kindergarten kids learning how to read and write lol, what was more amazing was that there was actually a test again! This time i did better than last time though :) ( i only wrote a few more words ) GG
Well this is like a wake up call already, no more time for shippai again. Next time, its full marks :)
Ganbatte!

Saturday was retarded as usual and i realised that my weekly routine of basketball in the morning suddenly stopped o.o! I believe it is the time when the j2s are starting to get busy , oh well i better play more with jy and jeremy before it becomes almost impossible to contact them :/
But oh well it seems that tomorow i am exercising ( finally ) with jy again, i thought mahjong was tomorrow though but apparently it was next monday ! :D
I hope i dont lose money omg.

Back to what happened on saturday, we set off at 3pm ( is this time considered late for a 18 year old ? ) nevertheless, we went to park lane as usual but this time, the lans were full! FOR ONCE! :)
That is not to be happy about though and we got a place in IRC , i met wee siong and his friends there though and we played 2 games of dota, it was 1-1 . :)
We lost the first badly and won the second , at least my naga put up a fight :)
Next was snooker and word of advice, never play snooker unless u are pro - pro. With our skills, we couldn't get past 30 points, we are awesomez . T.T
To think 1 hr of snooker was $12.80 ouch.
Next up was chicken rice near park lane which was super expensive as well at the price of $3.50 omgzzzzz, but it was pretty decent and we made our way to bugis. I love it the way darren said this " I like bugis , it is the place where it is not convenient for everyone. " LOL

We watched hot summer days at iluma and the seats were not too bad, the popcorn was an exception though, it was a rubbery experience ;)
Darren stilll owes me money!
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That night was windy and nice, we chat as we walked to marina square for our night riders. I was surprised when i saw 133 though, a direct bus to my house for 45 cents! :D
The scums are probably cursing me though when they had to pay $4 for night rider = )
Oh well i guess thats it for now, off to try and finish off ToGether .
Owarimasho, sayonara

Oh man! i keep forgetting to blog haha! This whole week i have been going out until pretty late and upon reaching home i would be watching k-drama. Busy busy busy huh?
But i finally finished watching You 're Beautiful, it is really a nice and wonderful drama :)
coupled with the pretty girls and handsome guys, uwah! kanpeki! It is really funny too (:
Out of 10 i give it a 100 points! ( inside joke in the drama )

Oh well, this whole week the outings were majority with the scums of life and as usual we ruin our lives further through dota and dota and dota and a little bit of pool. Some of the dota games we played were exhilarating though, ownage heros XD
And the pool at parklane , omg! its new and not many people know of that place yet. For the same price of 10.80 per hr ( weekend price ) i think it is more worth it to go there for its better quality of tables and balls :D

Did i mention about cartel's happy hour? The one that goes at 50% after 9pm for its pastas and snacks? the price of the food are not the only things that are 50% off, so are the quality and the quantity of the food . The two most important aspects are neglected thus leaving us with an impression that cartel's pastas sucks. It was pretty horrible for it tasted like any other normal $3/$4 pastas u can find around , we could deal with the drop in quantity but given the quality it was a good choice to have a drop in quantity for it was painful eating it haha.
Another experience was at dhorby exchange's just acia, oh god. The ice cream was WONDERFUL, -.-"
The soft cream which was served was so watery and budgeted , no wonder there was a free flow of ice cream and drinks. The price was ok though, at $10 i got a deep fried chicken set which compliments free flow drinks, ice cream and tea. The cost of more rice was $1 ( ridiculous ) too.
Salty chicken and tasteless rice, its a wonder why we must eat them together all the time.

I realise that i shouldn't be complaining too much lol , overall i think just acia is ok but i wouldn't recommend it though, i rather people have the chicken rice just next to it for that is more awesome (:

Other then the fact that i have been neglecting WOW , my life has been pretty much the same so far and nothing really major or new has happened. Hint hint *
Our dining in royalty session at meritus and our overnight kbox session has been poseponed to next week when our full team has holidays. There is no running this time D:

Lester signs off , going to celebrate Mar's results :)
Good job , straight As . A good role model for me to follow :D